Friday, September 30, 2005

OLIVIA



My daughter was born in 1998. She is a complete blending of two cultures, two worlds, two people, one love. Never did it cross my mind what it would be like to experience and observe the birth of a human being. Those of you who have experienced it, will know what I'm talking about. I have enjoyed each day of her life with the most admiration that you can have for anyone. I am not sure what I would do if she was not around. I used to question the same thing before Barb died. But at that time, Olivia was a few months old. So there was a reason for living.
Olivia will be a mirror image of her mom and I will be there everyday, to watch her grow, to guide her steps and to support her. She is so alive and aware of her own life. She amazes me and everyone around her. That may be true for all kids around. That may be a feeling all parents experience alike, at least I wish they all do. She does remember her mom, if ever so briefly...Thank goodness for video tapes, she can watch all sorts of episodes of her Mom while she was alive.
Am I dwelling on this too much?
Am I making myself crazy?
Or is it therapy.

7 comments:

Yamell said...

She looks just like you. What a cutie pie!

Chloe said...

I get similar feelings with my son. I watch him every day and he never stops to amaze me with his wisdom. Through his eyes, everything is simple. My son is 7, about the same age as your daughter? They should have blogs and talk too.
No, you are not dwelling on this too much. Something very important, very happy and very sad happened. This isn't therapy either. It's a circle of friends listening. I'm listening!

Moni said...

She does look exactly like you!! What a cutie! :D

Jane said...

She is beautiful. You are not dwelling on it too much. You both suffered a tremendous loss that will have impact on the rest of your lives. It is so fortunate that she (and you as well) can watch video of her mother. It may not be a substitute but at least it's something. Your daughter is lucky to have a father who is so loving, so thoughtful and concerned.

Aisha said...

what a sweet reflection! cute little girl! :)

fb said...

The world thru a child...would their worries be similar to ours...or their blogs so much more interesting!?

CiscoKid said...

Their world is completely out of our realm. To them, we are an alien life form.
We love and they love us anyways.