DEPRESSION

I think its been depression what has been afflicting me the last couple of days...Not sure why.
Usually it comes around the anniversary of my wife's death (I write of her as if she was still here)-I don't have a wife.
The last couple of days, I am just out of it. I read and nothing sticks. I write and nothing makes sense. I listen to music without really listening. It is just background noise, then my brother calls me this morning to tell me that a childhood friend-more his than mine, though I still knew and know him, is on his deathbed...
I need some good news...
Maybe I just need a vacation.
Alone...